i hate being afraid.
i'm a coward.
i don't know what's wrong with me. i feel so fundamentally broken inside, and i don't know why. i fucking HATE living in my head. everything is my fault, and i'm making it all up for attention. i'm stupid and selfish and terrible.
i can't do anything for myself. i'm useless. i have hardly any motivation and i'm all talk.
i feel hollow.